06/23/2026
first of all shut up i am writing in lowercase.
chatgpt. is abih. i was like. here r old projects of mine videos and programs and such. and this bitch said. what stands out to me is ur willingness to ship uncompleted projects.
dont even play with me.
anyways tho. after some thinkings. pi. i am like pi.
meesa tend to struggle a bit with like. getting overwhelmed by thinking, and i used to be terrified of infinity wen i was a kid. like. id just try to think of how itd be. then id staart liek. malfunction tweaking. then id like have a. sad widdle panic attack. pussy. just kidding. i still very much have that nowadays, and a lot of it i describe here as an issue of "overthinkign" but more... endless thinking. its like. ie. how right do i need to be for this to be right ?! wait is it supposed to be right what if its a different definition. and i just get stalled and bonked.
living eternally. and being dead eternally. hath terrified me. then just in general. living. i used to imagine a straight line, going on and on. but that made me feel scared and lonely. so around like 12 i moved to an image of a circle. that felt dooming. i returned back to the line for a bit, which helped when life would go dookie poo because it just minimized my life for me.
meow i feel a bit hesitant to share dis. but turns out the line was leading to a point. Both filled and unfilled.
but that's just a theory. a game theory.
anyways life status update. my father resigned from his job im in texas and my boyfriend is dada and im not dehumanizing him by calling him boyfriend because i am making him read this but he isnt so i dont care.